Darling, it’s still dark !

Even at my worst,

I’m best with you

The more I say,

Even more is still left to.

Words won’t suffice

To portray your smile

Or the pride that’s mine

As we walk the patent style ;)

Universe disappears

As around me you drape,

I unleash me into you

Entangled we make a shape

Yielding to the magic

The world we disregard

Don’t wanna relapse,

Darling, it’s still dark!

Leave out all the rest

I have been wanting to write something since so many days…But couldn’t get time or the flow or that frame of mind wherein I could gather it all and type it down, not that now I have either of it :P but I have that nudge in me tonight, that I d come up with something.. atleast something… 
Seems people are bored of rhymes and poems or anything that seems close to it.. to all you out there, if at all anybody is, Sorry !! : )
[ I got an sms saying, come up with a blog, not a poem :P ]

The New Year by far has been a cocktail… it started with a bang! A night full of fun n laughter with my 4 friends… twas fun.. missed *somebody* like hell that night who was in solapur. Later on, some really special time spent with *somebody and his family*…… then my cousin’s news of being diagnosed with a deadly dengue (thankfully he is out of danger now), then the MS,MBA thing, all the tension, the confusion, all the worries about the future, which still seems dark like this template. Another tragic thing that happened was reopening of college. I hate the people there. I hate the college. And no, I’m not even A BIT sad that its my last sem in college, in fact I m happy. i just wanna get outta it soon as possible ! (calm down, mon! )

Well, then happened the SALSA :) which transported me to an utterly different world. It was a thing to cherish for life ! a thing that I’m gonna value forever ! Who’d’ve in the rarest of his/her dreams thought that, of all the people, ME n SATYA ‘d perform a SALSA !! :) that too in ICT !! :O ……:P :D but we did.. n describing the experience is too appalling a task for words.. nothing NOTHING can describe it. I won’t even attempt to.

So to sum it up, new year has been a sinusoidal curve, n I hope the interval isn’t the entire year. :P (uffff !!! the maths!!! ) ( ve been taking math classes for shubam :P ) (sorry )

So the thing called life Which seemingly belongs to you but is controlled by anybody but you !
And I hate this fact. If I make mistakes in life, LET ME!!!! to cry out loud! Coz that’s the best way I m gonna know life well. But no, 10 people visit …… n leave after giving 10 unwanted suggestions EACH !!! WHY ! no amount of this kinda frenzied typing is gonna convey the anger !!! not that I’m in a very good condition either.

MY CONDITION …-- a 7+ ptr, mech engg, who chose to *not* give cat (n all that) during final year fearing it might hamper the performance in college [ as if she was gonna top it :D ]. She *doesn’t* want to do job coz ‘job+studying for mba wont work’ is wat she believes in. So she decided on taking a year drop to study for entrances. [She hardly believes in herself ] All this after eliminating MS option for the love of MBA. This is ONLY point where she is poised, that she wants to do mba. [thank god]

So what?

Loneliness kills me. I get disturbed by slightest of disruptions. I tend to think only negative about my future. I have no idea how am I even gonna cope up with all this pressure of giving n getting good marks in ‘cat n all that ‘ right in the first attempt. :( ….

N even after all this, I don’t regret what all I did or did not.. maybe that’s a good thing.. or....... maybe bad. dunno.

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I have done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest.
Leave out all the rest “

Feels better.. :|
Goodnight/day!
@Satya: thanks for being with me thru it all....

Constant

In the equation of your life
I’ll always be a constant
Where everything else varies
I’ll be there, persistent.

When everything else pulls you down
No matter how bad it’d go
Just quit all the worry and smile
Coz I wont let you turn to zero.

If you wish to integrate
I will adapt as you state
Assure me you wont differentiate
Coz that’d mean I eliminate.

(Too childish, I know)
(For a change)………… (or maybe, AS USUAL :P )

My Point of Contact with Happiness

Placing a bookmark to this day,
The thing hard to describe and say
Happened …….
Thing that happened was life…
No one can ever take it away…

Was it the Truth or a Dream
Nothing left to hold onto
I wish I could just scream
Like you did,
When they urged you to ;)

The day of no inhibitions
Love was in the air and space
I don’t know if right or disgrace
‘t was nonetheless,
My point of contact with happiness.

QUIT

Silence

As loud confusions begin

Smile

As more tears develop within

Sleep

When the sane-you arises at night

Run

Run to a place safe to hide

Dream

But forget when its dawn

Give up

When dies the nudge to go on

Study

Coz they want you to thrive

Eat

Coz they want you to survive

Quit

When you are too weak to give a fight

Wrong????

Yet doesn’t stop feeling right.