DisgrAce

Life has it scornful way
Of putting things on display
Gives an Ace, so you 'all-in'
And then snatches everything away.


When you are ready to fly up high,
Past comes forth and blinds your view,
It's all black now, nowhere to go,
Just one more way of,
Life mocking you.


(incomplete..... will complete it some other time)


Goodnight/day !

On a somber note....

We often keep great expectations from others but in the process we fail to comprehend that everyone can make a mistake. Behind the façade of brilliance, there can be a person who dithers, makes mistakes and acts like a complete foolish. And for this very reason I find the word "perfect" actually ‘overrated’. Have you ever thought how fantastically boring a person will become if he meets all the 'set standards’ of the term ‘perfect’ on every aspect of his life?

I always feel that people expect a lot from others and recommend a lot to others. ‘A certain someone should have done this.’, ‘A certain someone could have done better than this.’ WHY !! I find all this completely pointless. But hardly anybody will agree with me on this, I know. What people see, what people interpret is superficial. What lies inside for each one of us is different and of equal essence, not less, not more than anybody else's.

Life is more profound. There are many good things about being the person you are, and one should be thankful for it. There are thousands of people doing the things they are fantastic at. Dancers, singers, writers, poets, philanthropists, managers, entrepreneurs are staring at your face. Businessman cannot mock a dancer for no acumen of doing a business, right? More common examples of successful accomplishments, if you will, are the moms and dads who have given all their life to bring up their kids into good beings. An entire life spent towards realization of a solitary goal or a few goals really proves the worthiness, doesn’t it?

In general, people judge too much based on the more trivial attributes of a person. It’s the coffee cup they look at, and judge, and fail to realize that the coffee being served to you all is just the same. It’s just that some of you have got more expensive cups than others, but how much of a difference does it make as long as the coffee you are having is the same? If this is complied with, then why do people with great coffee-mugs shun those with fractured mugs?

Think.

Goodnight/day

(Thanks to Aniruddha Kelkar for the coffee-cup analogy)

15-12-2010

Back in time...

Delving into the memories,

I smile...

And wish if i could

Turn back to a page

And rewrite it with a little change

Beseeching to slow down time

For me to frame the words right

To confess to an ex-desire about the feeling

That was difficult for my heart to keep in

Or going back to the dance floor,

With my buddies & friends,

And complete the unfinished dance step

With all grace and elegance

Or moving back in time and shout

The three magic words- 'I Love You', out loud

Then capture the smile on his face

And melt.... as he holds me in embrace

.

.

.

Forever and a Day !

Our eyes met

And world began to disappear

"Wonderful tonight"

The only words we could hear

You held me close

My heart began to race

A picture of our life

My mind started to trace

Like an angelic star

Crooning to my soul

No matter how far

You make me whole

If ever you doubt,

This is all i have to say

I will love you,

Forever and a day !

Don't know what to say...

There are people in this world who are really sensitive at heart, no matter how they look prima facie, they really feel the pain when they unknowingly hurt anybody. What we normally encounter are the people who are really indifferent to others’ emotions or pain. I have a long list of such people in my life. Not that I like being pitied or something but the emotional quotient is certainly not there….

My commute to the college everyday involves taking a bus upto CST and then either taking a cab from CST or another bus depending upon how late I am for the class. So today, like everyday, I went to CST and waited for cabs to come by. Since the drive from CST to my college ain’t that long, not many cab drivers entertain me. After about 5-6 drivers refused to drive me to my college, there came a cab. The driver looked really submissive…. docile if you will. I said, “bhaiya, aakashwani?” and he agreed. While on the way to the college, near Hutatma chowk, the cab was in great speed, I had tuned in to my radio.. and suddenly this guy pressed the brakes hard, and I heard some noise “KHATTTT!!!!” …

Taking out earphones, I asked him as to what happened, and in a really heartrending tone he said “Kutta tha” and I got the connection, that he had hit some dog… I asked him stop the car immediately and turned around to see if the dog’s still there… as I got off the cab a bus came along and the bus driver was laughing at the cab driver saying, “kutte ko mara tumne”. In a more poignant voice this cab driver asks “mar gaya kya wo”, to which he replied, “nahi nahi bach gaya, bhag gaya”. After hearing this, I walked some steps back to see if the dog was still there, but I couldn’t find it.

Then as I sat in the car, I looked at him in the rear view mirror (which is tilted in such a manner that passenger can communicate with the driver) and asked him to continue, I saw tears in his eyes. This guy seemed so sensitive at heart, that I was stunned to actually see him cry. I obviously didn’t let him realize that I saw him, but I was deeply touched too.

I didn’t know what say... I still don’t know what to say…….

Goodnight/day!

The Nameless

Burden of proving to the world,

Heaps up and gets heavier,

Only tussle easier than today’s

Seems to be that of yesterday’s.

Running after The Nameless,

You lose the breath and collapse.

Heart pounds against the beneath surface,

Horizon extends, leaving no trace.

Know you need

To come out true.

"If time has all answers,

You have no clue."

Moment has to run out,

Mocking your inability.

When you are ready to restart,

It’s either too late, or too early.

Don't ask "Why Me ?"

Blogging after a really long time. But I'm here to share something really nice with you... It's a story. One thing lead to another and i stumbled upon this piece of writing. It's amazing. Check out. And yeah, I'll try and post more.

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of AIDS which he got due to infected blood he received during a heart surgery in 1983. From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease"?

To this Arthur Ashe replied:

"The world over -- 50 million children start playing tennis, 5 million learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, when I was holding a cup I never asked GOD 'Why me ?'.

And today in pain I should not be asking GOD 'Why me ?' "

"Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrow keeps you Human,
Failure keeps you humble and Success keeps you glowing, but only Faith & Attitude Keeps you going...

Goodnight/day!

An Update ! #1

There is no substitute for hard work! There cannot be one! I realized it this year :P Oh yes, Life plays a joke on you at times... Realizing the importance of hard work at the age of 23 ! LOL! I'll explain...

Unlike most people who appear for all sorts of entrances in their final year of engineering, I decided to take a year off and study! A giant step! Questions thrown at me from all directions, yes, literally directions... But after Engineering, I wasn't sure of what next! All I knew was I want to study more and not get into JOB-JOB right away, but it was too late, I was already done with engineering. I gave up the job offer and decided to appear for entrances... but again WHICH entrances??? MBA entrances or M.S., M.Tech. entrances :P.. Yes, now you realize my degree of indecisiveness. No, but eventually, i took a decision...! It was MBA! for obvious reasons :P

A professor in my college did question my decision, and she was actually shocked to see me not going for higher technical studies, as she expected. . Not that I was that bad at all the tech stuff! In fact at the end of 6th semester I had a crush on IC Engines. In 7th semester Cryogenics took over. I was good at it... in fact for some months I was even determined to do something in Cryogenics. But that evaporated soon enough! Eventually, ended up deciding to MBA :P atleast I’ll make some money if not Cryogenic Refrigerators and all... Though I still feel, somewhere in my heart, that the latter’d’ve been more interesting. But running away from places where one needs to do immense hard work....oh well, that just described me! :D

So, studying for the prestigious CAT for entry into even more prestigious IIM was on the list! But I took the preparation lightly... Yes. I admit. I knew a month before CAT that I’m not going to make it. Also the examination fear that I have. Then with that depressed state of mind I appeared for some more entrances but couldn't perform like I expected myself to perform. But one thing was sure, as I appeared for exams my fear factor reduced a lot and my realization, that I’m taking all this lightly, increased..

I had taken a year drop when actually I could have easily taken up a job and earned and shopped like most of my friends do! So it started growing on me. By then I had lost CAT, XAT.. JMET was good. SNAP was good... NMAT was great! I realized that as the exam season progressed, my comfort increased! I soooo wish that sequence of exams was exact reverse, I'd've done better in CAT. Though can't vouch for it.. since CAT is a stupid exam ! (more on this later)

All exams done with, I was left with the CET ! Knowing that I’d not made it big in any of previous exams, I decided to give the CET a best shot, which is really needed since there's only one GOOD college that one fights for through CET. But I couldn't concentrate well since was busy giving GDPI of SNAP and JMET and also 12th boards were coming up and I had to help Akshay and Shubham with their Maths and Physics. Finally, was free by 14th February! CET was scheduled on 27th Feb! Yes, ten days of real hard study... only I know HOW I pulled it off!

What I did was-

I appeared for all the mocks of my coaching class, where I’d opted for the CET TEST SERIES i remember this friend (by serendipity) of mine telling me, while we were travelling by local, to solve as many mocks as possible. He was in that particular college already! i kept his words in mind. Constant practice. I scored consistently well in those mocks... But I knew some areas which ate up a lot of time.. Like Venn Diagrams, Input-Output types...! Worked REALLY HARD on these topics, solved 600 Questions from the giant book of verbal and non verbal reasoning in 2 days! Solved 200 non verbal reasoning questions in a day! I realized the difference in my preparation at this point of time. For all previous exams, I never really worked upon my weak areas instead I kept reinforcing the already strong ones! That was a mistake... I solved 20 mocks at home...! Now again, I hadn't done this for any exam before... Towards the end I could solve all 200 questions in 150 minutes!!! (It's not that easy, believe me)

So, was kinda all set for CET, went to the exam centre.. Pretty confident (unlike before), sure to score well (unlike before), thoroughly prepared...with special attention on weak links (unlike before)... But then, like I said, Life does play jokes on you, doesn't it?

Murphy was the one I thought about at that instant when I was writing the paper!!! :D

The CET, most unexpectedly, diverted from its normal pattern... and diverted pretty much!!!! It was tough!! Not at all like the mocks I took... or nowhere resembling the difficulty level either... I started solving the paper... In first 10 minutes, where normally in mocks I used to solve about 15-16 questions, here I could solve only 5-6!!! I said to myself -- "Damn, this ONE exam for which you gave your best shot at preparation in such limited time, this ONE exam which was certainly CRACK-able... has turned otherwise" I pitied myself.. I knew it was the end... I'll have to take admission in a so-so college...coz giving one more year for preparation sounded ridiculous! (And after CAT 2010 I actually started fearing cats !! :P :D you never know when will it change its mind !! ) After 2-3min of the panic attack, I resumed solving the paper.

Finished the paper somehow! Had 180 genuine attempts, 8-9 educated guesses and the rest blind darkening of circles!!! Compare this with 20 mocks, where I could genuinely attempt all 200 consistently!!! It was like a slap on my face for the careless attitude till now... Came out, interacted with people and there were like, really good people attempting in the range of 100-130! And that was when I thought I still stand a chance... But you never know how the cutoffs would turn out...!

Meanwhile, converted 2of 3 SNAP calls, missed NMAT gdpi (biggest mistake), did not appear for TAPMI gdpi... still have their call letter in my cupboard...... :P

Then dawned the result day! I was not expecting anything great! I knew how horrible the paper was and how awful it was for me.... Result came out, and as expected, the scores were too low! Hence, it was good for me :) Where I stood after results, there were about 115 students ahead of me...! But a good score, good percentile.... overall good! But it still did not guarantee me the top most college... the next big thing was gdpi! CET GDPI, they say, is a gamble! It's the most important thing, probably more important than the written exam! :D It is that BIG THING that decides your fate! And this time I knew I can't take the GDPI lightly like I did for previous exams.. One month of GDPI preparation, actually 20 days, and I did my best! Towards the end of the month, there were gdpi's conducted at my coaching institute... participated in like 7-8 GD's... (Had not given mock GD or PI for SNAP or JMET) realized where I need to build up! Learnt a lot by observing people... It was a decent crowd that we had... coupla CET toppers, others were also good speakers. Had a good time collecting facts and figures, reading newspapers, watching news, developing my own perspective towards things, was not that hard, it was indeed good ! Used to watch LokSabha TV for hours together to get updates on facts! I enjoyed the process and realized that I’m ACTUALLY working hard for something....! I felt good...

GDPI went great!

Provisional list came out on 16th June and according to it I’m in for the top most college that I have been talking about. And now there were only 42 people ahead of me... Such a giant leap was not expected!!! 115 to 41!!! Felt great!!!

But then it was discovered that there were some errors in allocating work ex marks to people who deserved it... So it is being predicted that the final list will deviate a bit from the provisional list. Final list is going to be out on 29th and here I am, two days before that, writing this blog... describing all the fucked up stuff I created for myself to bring myself where I am today! :D

But whatever the result brings out, I don't care (actually i do :P).. But I have learnt my lessons... and that's more important... Hard work pays off ! Work hard, it will never go unnoticed or unrewarded! :)

Life teaches a lot and such bull shit is digested only when you learn from life... There was a time when I used to laugh at sentences like "Life teaches a lot" but today, having learnt from my own life, I can say that!! :) And whatever went in to get me a lesson learnt, was worth it!

After all everything happens for good!!! And whatever unfortunate happened before -- chuck it!!

Because SHIT HAPPENS! :D

(Will update you all about my result, pray for me)

Goodnight/day!! :)

Time

‘Time’ has its own way

Of putting things on display

Infinite showers of love, sometimes,

Timer of parting pricks and chimes

Forcing out a smile with a tear

As it carves us up from someone dear

Losing to the triumph of the greatest fear,

The time is now, the time is here

All feelings I had to portray

Everything that I had to convey

One odd day takes it all away

Screaming are silent words that stay

How will I replenish the blank

Or sing something I never sang?

Time will decide flame or fumes,

It will tell if I stay together.........

.................................

Or get dissolved into molecules.

(To my close ones who will soon be going too far...... Love you)

Hi !

A few days ago, someone told me that an IT engineer couldn’t get a cheque or something cleared in bank because his sign did not match, even after trying like 10 times… Reason: He hadn’t held a pen in his hand for many years… Well, I saw a similar thing happening with me since a few days… No, not with pen… but with the keyboard… I just couldn’t come up with something good to share about… not that I have always done. But you know, when come to visit your own blog once in 3 months, people do expect from you something worth reading :P … or the blog becomes obsolete… in my case though, now I feel it has already become obsolete, so I don’t really care what I write and not… I don’t understand what kept me away, lack of inspiration maybe. I even thought that I might lose the style I have, which most people love. I was afraid that a shade of sarcasm and a comic touch, they say it has, might go away.

As I went through some of my recent posts, I realized I am totally handicapped to even come up with anything close. Such kind of commitment and fervor and passion….! Most of my blog posts came up when I was graduating, after that I have not come up with many, and whatever things I have written aren’t that good….! I think it’s the constant working of your brain on different topics, no matter how lame, stupid or at times rational, that keeps your mindscape in shape and helps add to the blog’s landscape.

Let’s just hope that I am not free from the jinx of my style.

And please let me know who all still visit my blog.. please raise your hands… :P or … just say a Hi in the comments section, so I know who still has/have hopes from the hopeless… :D

Goodnight/day !

How can it be fine.... Without T9 ???!!!!

I was shocked to know that some of my friends do not use the T9 dictionary feature which eases the pain of typing. If you’re a QWERTY keypad user, don’t bother reading this… but for all those whose cell phones have 9 keys only and yet do not use T9, Welcome to the Earth!! : ) No, Seriously… You must read this! And to all those who already use T9 and believe that entire world uses it, I wanna say- No, few days back I believed so too… but it came as a shock to me that some people (known for typing really long msgs) actually do not use T9 :O :O :O and WHY !!!!! God knows… I wonder how many hours they spend to come up with that one msg !! :D

T9 -Text on 9 keys is a software which predicts the word which can be formed by using the letters on the keys that you have pressed… ok… example:

Suppose you want to type the word ‘home’, all you have to do is press 4-6-6-3 once once once & once respectively… :P :D because ‘h’ is on 4, ‘o’ on 6, ‘m’ on 6, ‘e’ on 3 !!! Now you’ll see that the word ‘good’ is displayed on the screen. This is because 4-6-6-3 combination can also generate the word ‘good’. So, when you wanna explore the all combinations of given set of keys, you can toggle by pressing “*” (star)

Typing the same word without T9 will cause some pain in your thumb :P because only for typing ‘home’ you have to go like this- 4-4-6-6-6-6-3-3 :D Senseless innit…???

Try typing MONICA. All you have to do is type 6-6-6-4-2-2 with T9 on, as against 6-6-6-6-6-6-4-4-4-2-2-2-2 with T9 off….
Choice is yours……

Btw, I wanna tag some friends here ;) --
Renuka, Sukumar, Janhavi, Vrishali…. And the list goes on.! :P... Do Use T9, dear friends ! : )
Goodnight/day !

PS- i felt like a kindergarten teacher while writing this :D :P
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Why We Oppose the Jaitapur Nuclear Power Project

Something that we must know before coming to a verdict of NPP in Jaitapur..

A perspective that'd probably never reach us.

Decision is tough. It's always tough to choose whenever such scenarios have occurred, for India it's always been so..

But if what's written in this letter to CM is all correct, i think the government should reconsider the proposal... Especially consider the fact that the place experiences seismic tremors..!

I got this letter from South Asia Citizens Website... one must go through it once...

Please read the following and do leave your take on this issue.

Take it as a case study...

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http://www.sacw.net/article1864.html

Goodnight/Day!