Leave out all the rest

I have been wanting to write something since so many days…But couldn’t get time or the flow or that frame of mind wherein I could gather it all and type it down, not that now I have either of it :P but I have that nudge in me tonight, that I d come up with something.. atleast something… 
Seems people are bored of rhymes and poems or anything that seems close to it.. to all you out there, if at all anybody is, Sorry !! : )
[ I got an sms saying, come up with a blog, not a poem :P ]

The New Year by far has been a cocktail… it started with a bang! A night full of fun n laughter with my 4 friends… twas fun.. missed *somebody* like hell that night who was in solapur. Later on, some really special time spent with *somebody and his family*…… then my cousin’s news of being diagnosed with a deadly dengue (thankfully he is out of danger now), then the MS,MBA thing, all the tension, the confusion, all the worries about the future, which still seems dark like this template. Another tragic thing that happened was reopening of college. I hate the people there. I hate the college. And no, I’m not even A BIT sad that its my last sem in college, in fact I m happy. i just wanna get outta it soon as possible ! (calm down, mon! )

Well, then happened the SALSA :) which transported me to an utterly different world. It was a thing to cherish for life ! a thing that I’m gonna value forever ! Who’d’ve in the rarest of his/her dreams thought that, of all the people, ME n SATYA ‘d perform a SALSA !! :) that too in ICT !! :O ……:P :D but we did.. n describing the experience is too appalling a task for words.. nothing NOTHING can describe it. I won’t even attempt to.

So to sum it up, new year has been a sinusoidal curve, n I hope the interval isn’t the entire year. :P (uffff !!! the maths!!! ) ( ve been taking math classes for shubam :P ) (sorry )

So the thing called life Which seemingly belongs to you but is controlled by anybody but you !
And I hate this fact. If I make mistakes in life, LET ME!!!! to cry out loud! Coz that’s the best way I m gonna know life well. But no, 10 people visit …… n leave after giving 10 unwanted suggestions EACH !!! WHY ! no amount of this kinda frenzied typing is gonna convey the anger !!! not that I’m in a very good condition either.

MY CONDITION …-- a 7+ ptr, mech engg, who chose to *not* give cat (n all that) during final year fearing it might hamper the performance in college [ as if she was gonna top it :D ]. She *doesn’t* want to do job coz ‘job+studying for mba wont work’ is wat she believes in. So she decided on taking a year drop to study for entrances. [She hardly believes in herself ] All this after eliminating MS option for the love of MBA. This is ONLY point where she is poised, that she wants to do mba. [thank god]

So what?

Loneliness kills me. I get disturbed by slightest of disruptions. I tend to think only negative about my future. I have no idea how am I even gonna cope up with all this pressure of giving n getting good marks in ‘cat n all that ‘ right in the first attempt. :( ….

N even after all this, I don’t regret what all I did or did not.. maybe that’s a good thing.. or....... maybe bad. dunno.

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I have done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest.
Leave out all the rest “

Feels better.. :|
Goodnight/day!
@Satya: thanks for being with me thru it all....