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I've been dozing off too late these days, exams over; reading books, cleaning room, talking excessively on phone with mom, sis and bro, or just chatting/commenting/interviewing/passive fbing..... plus, i discovered this electric heating coil in the evening, in one of my abandoned old bags.... i bought some milk powder, coffee powder in eve. And even as i write this, i m having a glassful coffee....! thereby jeopardizing the remotest of possibility of sleep...

Read 2 states... wonderful story...... well written...... more of entertainment.... u feel like u just watched a Hindi film.... Chetan Bhagat's books have always been like that....

started with Frederick Forsyth......

why m i writing down this random stuff, u may question... please bear with me coz even i dunno what i m writing... or thinking... or even doing.. or writing.. oh i cant believe i wrote it twice.. see, din't i say!

Exams are over, don't wanna talk of it, though... they are OVER !!!

Dying to go back home...i hear its chilling cold out there in a'bad [unlike Mumbai where the Mercury's Thermal Expansion or Contraction never occurs] not that i can stand low temperatures, its just that i love all my sweatshirts [:D] .... This city (mumbai) will never be subjected to such low temperatures except for exam in Cryogenics...

i m excited about the return journey for certain 'ssshhhh' reasons tooo [ ;) ] hehe...

just the journey is gonna be fun. coz all my folks there will be busy writing their exams :( and the 'sssshhh' reason will be just for a day ;(

gotto finish off license thing in any condition... [weary eyes]
gotto do project work...... [ :x ]

ufff!!! Life's a bitch, didn't i say???

Goodnight/day !!!!

Remember???

Remember the night

when your eyes revealed

The words you wanted to confess

And left my eyes

Rather wordless?

Remember the vow

Of never to regress?

And predict the smile

That’s a “no-marks-guess”

Remember how we

disowned ourselves

To the love and the tenderness

And first expressed

the feeling that had

a meaning engrossed?

Remember how you

Whispered in my ear

The words of wisdom

That undid all the fear,

……made the road clear

And boosted me

To hit the top gear ..

Next year, this time..

Realizing how things will be changed next year, this time. I know it’s gonna be more unbearable than I can ever even perceive…. Why does it have to change at all??? Why can’t we all get down at the same stop, stay together forever.. Or, or, why can we all stay where we are??? Why do we have to leave everything that we love/we are used to… and go to somewhere we know we wont be as happy?? Why’s life a bitch????

Some will be into job-job, some will be studying their asses off, some will go to USA, DAMN GRE !!! [although, I dunno which category I fit in]. Into an utterly different world, doing things that life makes one do… why can’t WE make our life??

How troubling this thought is!! Agonizing, to say the least effectual. [:| ]

Will I have those night outs anymore with you gals.. ???       

Long phone chats with Janhavi until the cell-battery gives up????   

Or an sms fight with Neha????                                                 

Candid Confessions with Renuka???                                             

Or those “India played superb!Din I say Sachin is God!” conversations with Ameya???                                                      

Or those “hi sis” “kya bhai” dialogue with Sumeet???                   

Or those ‘Friends’ discussions with Neeraj???                                 

Or those Voyages with Satya??? {aaaaAAAaaa!!!!}[ :( ]

Why’s it all gonna change????                                                          I don’t wanna miss any of these…. I don’t want all this to alter either… but figuring out that it’d not be anymore ‘like this’ after, say, next 7months leaves me marooned.

Only if you guys can offer any help to get me outta this.. …..[:(]

Reminds me of :

“Livin' alone,
I think of all the friends I've known.
But when I dial the telephone,
Nobody's home.
All by myself,
Don't wanna live, all by myself anymore”

[:(]

Goodnight/day!

House arrest

I don’t even know if anybody even drops in on this blog these days, Neeraj Ameya Sumeet AND Satya, do you? Atleast???

[:)]Quite a lull since pretty long. I do have reasons [;)] but I’m back !!! and right in the middle of my exams … Thanks to the supposed “CYCLONE” that is/was going to hit Mumbai [:)] that we got our Mechatronics paper postponed to 27^th nov, and I got sometime off to bother about my blog after it had become all outmoded with boring poems that I keep on writing and which people appreciate only coz they love me. [:P]  I subject them to all this, forgive me, God.

Last few weeks…. Very bad.. submissions… exams… tensions… running after Xerox…Uffff !!!! the sum of money engineers spend in Xerox-ing is enormous; makes me consider it as a stand-in career option if I don’t land up anywhere good. [:)]

So I was saying- tensions took toll on me leaving me like I have expressed in “In this despair, In this fear” [:P]  ( See, I endorse my poems [:P], Shameless I’m) and I wonder, I’d’ve not been so tensed if I knew my future! I’ll elaborate on it more after exams though. Its about mechatronics.

So, the purpose of this blog is to let the readers… if any…… know that the writer is very much alive but busy with some more important stuff in her life [:)]…And as everything falls well in place she’ll be back to this black-board keying in all the relevant and irrelevant…. interesting and boring……. prose and poetries [:D]

Currently it’s a house arrest for me with a liability to do pretty much nothing else but study, . And anyway most of you guys must be busy doing submissions or enjoying PL’s or passive FBing or voyaging!!!

Oh I miss our voyages !!!

Goodnight/day!!!

You

You have heard it all

Yet you don’t mind hearing it again

Each day for you I fall

In your love I rise up again

 

You let me talk n talk

Until I find my way

Then you pronounce it all in silent words

The thing I just tried to say

 

Angry silence or my glum heart

You decode it and with art

Offer me an embrace

All I need, you know in a glance

 

Seems magical how you read

All unwritten n unspoken

And I realize lying here in bed

How my feelings are always stolen

 

Tonight, for you I wait

I close my eyes and see

All the dark hills you’ll have to cross

To reach me

To grace this aching heart

And then never depart

I just wanna belong here...

(based on my experience of 19th Oct, breathtaking but lovely)

Outside love's lair
I shape up my messed up hair
And then slowly knock on the door
Of your hearts and stand on the golden floor

Let me in, for i want to stay
I don't wanna anymore sway
I'm tired of staying away
Here, tell me, can I lay?

The door opens…..
I lapse as i hear the creak
My heart skips a beat
I'd been over all this in my head
Can’t remember now, a single word i'd said
And as my anxiety kicks in
Leaves my body tremblin’
I begin to wonder how it'll turn out
But the sight of you ends all doubt
And my thoughts arrange in a line
I’m sure it’s all gonna be fine
Your words and laughter
Spraying comfort to reassure
A conviction that me derives
From those speaking eyes
Of Staying forever near
I just wanna belong here....

Tonight

 

Sitting by the window,

Engrossed in thoughts of you,

I see…

I have a life..

Celebrated like only a few.

 

In course of a stream..

Flows the craft of my dreams,

Those dreams promised by you..

The reason….

I want to continue.

 

In a flash you show up,

Dark walls of my heart light up.

All I dreamt so far

Befalls …

And I fall for you even more..

 

Another voyage..

And truth lies,

Tonight….

The Lovers ..

And the Night skies.

Untitled…

His fingers in her hair

He wants her to hold

From heart he told

What will I do without you, dear,

Me, Who’ll scold…??

 

Embracing her tight

Boosting her to fight

But conceding to toxin

She lost her might…

However she wanted

To be the reason

Of his smile

The toxin she had

Made her docile

 

A tear rolled

Down her cheek

And another dropped

Over her eye.

Embracing, she said to him,

“Hey dear, YOU don’t’ve to cry…

Coz I love the smile in your eye…

Beside me why don’t you lie

Sing all the old tunes I couldn’t comply

Take me to our land of imaginings

Only you and me

Nobody else ever spanned

Of all the joy I once pledged

Of our long life that we planned

By all that, honey, I couldn’t stand

Leaving you alone

In this unknown land..

‘d dreamt to spend my life with you

I did…..

But couldn’t pull through

The pain this life subjects me to”

 

And she’s lost in the haze

To her he tries to chase

There’s no chance

There’s no trace

She froze…

He lost the race…

Silent words…

The unspoken words now
We hear so clear
Quiescent they were
For all these years.

 

“When, How, Where”,
They demand,
The thing that was said
Without words but the heart
You tell me how
Do I tell them the start?

 

Solving muted riddles in my brain
I knew to a perfect choice I came
And the smile
On your face
Ensures me of
You thinking the same

 

I lay there in a trance
With you in all
Extents of my glance
You draw me
And I come close
‘Wonderful Tonight’
And we dance…

Tell me…

Happy time
Or hard days
Through it all
Tell me,
You wont change.

 

In gloom
Or in fun
In rain, or in sun
Tell me,
You’ll be the one.

 

Words of silence
Spreading meanings of love
To it all
Tell me,
You will keep up.

 

Trees dressed up
Or undressed
To your love,
Tell me,
There won’t be Autumn.

 

In silence,
In laughter,
Or if I banter,
Tell me,
You won’t alter.

 

Near …..
Or far we are
The distance,
Tell me
Won’t be the winner..