The thing called . . .

Yes, haven’t been posting much of late, blame the submission spell, not me. Submissions, the inevitable part of engineer’s making!!!

So, there are certain worries that are eating me up since last couple of weeks… 

1. The thing called Life; dunno where is it heading to, and why.
2. The thing called F.R.I.E.N.D.S.(the American Sitcom); its eating most of my time of submissions, the upshot of which is my incomplete submission file till the last moment!
3. The thing called Loneliness; I’m alone since a couple of weeks,(this family where I stay as PG has gone to their native Kolkata)  and as much as I always say that it doesn’t, but loneliness does get the hell out of me!! Not that I’m afraid to stay in this 2bhk apartment, I’m of course not, but the ‘loneliness’ is taking my breath away! “Aunty, Uncle, I miss you, Come soon!!!”
4. The thing called Responsibility; I have realized that my shoulders aren’t yet strong enough to bear any additional responsibility. Coz these people have gone, the entire flat is mine, Therefore, along with the freedom comes also the responsibility which I hate to accept. Responsibility of managing the house.
5. The thing called IPL (Indian Premier League); which comes free packed together with our End Sem. Exams (or the other way round)! And I m gonna face a real challenge yet again, a challenge to control myself from watching it (and ofcourse Saurav Ganguly)!
6. The thing called Captaincy of the Kolkata Knight Riders’; which has been passed on to Brendon McCullum from Saurav Ganguly! This news has taken me to rage against THE THING CALLED COACH OF THE INDIAN CRICKET TEAM!!! Why every coach has to make sure that he removes Saurav Ganguly from under Captain's hat and get a replacement???!!! First Chapell and now Buchanan!!! Both are *ssho***!
7. The thing called Cooking; as I have to take care of myself since last couple of weeks, I tried my hand at cooking. And mind you, I’m a disaster at it !
8. The thing called Vacations; Confused as to how to spend the vacations to get the max out of it, this being the last vacations of Engineering. Do CAT classes or a Summer-job.
9. The thing called Friends; though I’m making new ones and great ones, there lies this little fear and guilt inside me to have lost the older and dearer ones.
10. The thing called Time; my enemy since the time I came to this world! Its slipping away (since the time I was born)so easily without being made much use of.
11. The thing called Realization; that Engineering will be over soon and that’d mean being exposed to a greater world now! The Realization that how much friends will be needed in this phase of life where we will all be loaded with a glut of responsibilities.
12. The thing called Blogging; for which I dunno how much I’ll be able to squeeze out. But I certainly will coz this is something that directs my brain to a focused although for half an hour or so. Coz otherwise, my brain is un-focused!
13. The thing called ‘The thing called’; ie this post. Its not ending and its making me grumpy and ill-tempered.

Life has become sick and tired of itself. There’s nothing that seems to make me upbeat. Not friends, not family, not nobody!!!

Makes me recollect these lines from a song by Raageshwari, one of my favourites:

Duniya mein chalo akele,

Apne ho armaan,

Apne hisse ki ho dharti,

Apna aasman.

Ambar mein udi hoon main duniya ke..

Are haan, ye duniya, ye duniya badi rasili.

 The lines seem so ideal. IDEAL??? IDEAL is only a word to describe the imaginary state of being called ‘ideal’. What we have in life is REALISM not the IDEALISM/impracticality.

Be it your Thermodynamics or Mechanics or any process or just GODDAMN ANYTHING, Have we ever reached THE IDEAL thing??? NO!

We have always lived a Real life not the Ideal. We have always lived the Approximations not the Accuracies.

Its just there to make us realize that we are not in an IDEAL world. Bloody then why is this word defined, when it doesn’t really exist!!!?? Makes me wonder, why was 0(zero) introduced when that really is the state of non-existence of anything. (But that’s totally a different debate, 0 is essential, I know) 

0 is nothing then why is it defined? Similarly, IDEAL is nothing then why is it defined? Is it to only make us extra-sure of other things that exist???

Maybe yes, coz the entire world is a Relative concept. Nothing in this world is Absolute.

The more I write, the more I realize how complex can be the structure of brain. Its hell in there! My brain is a hell! I started with something, ending with some other thing. Maybe that can make you realize the struggle that my brain is going through these days. Struggle with life and Struggle with ‘the thing called …’ Whatever!!!

 

Goodnight/day!

 

A Theory or a Metaphor?

This theory/metaphor i'll be talking about is not really theorized/metaphorized by me like i didThe Apparent Speed Theory of Time (A Theory) few weeks ago :) .. I just came across this and  thought to share it. Its called the Frypan Theory! Have you ever looked up at the sky and thought, "Hey! that really looks like a scrambled egg?" Well, some people have. 

The theory is that-

 "The Sky really is a scrambled Egg, and the Yolk? well thats the Sun. God is up in heaven with his little Frypan cooking a scrambled egg.. and darn it,  it's taking a real long time!!! So long in fact that little bacteria are growing in the egg..  hehehe! and guess what!! we're the little bacteria, as we are very clever bacteria we have been rapidily growing and creating our own little city.. which means God's gonna have one hell of a time trying to clean the frypan when he's done with cooking his egg for breakfast. 

So you may ask, well whats the deal with all these natural disasters.. Well, earthquakes are quite obviously God getting impatient and giving the frypan a bit of a shake, as any bloke would.. he's getting hungry!! 

As for fires well sometimes the frypan slips and well a bit of bacteria or bacteria buidings (being us and what we have created being so darn smart and all) catches onto the flame...

 As for tornados, cyclones, volcanoes.. Well these are all just the mysteries of what happens when a guy is desperate for some food, and when will God finally get to eat his breakfast??? Well thats anyones guess... but he is ready for lunch.. he's preheated the oven, which is what we call Mars.. that's why the pathfinder didn't find any intelligent life on Mars, God hasn't put his lunch in the oven yet, he can't till he's done with his Breakfast." 

Quite Metaphorical, innit?? 

But one thing goes unanswered or say, The Drawback of this theory, as it goes is- 

The theory doesn't account for the natural phenomenon of day n night ..

ie visibility of yolk in certain part of bacteria land and not so in remaining part.

Any help on this will be highly appreciated :)

You are free to put up more drawbacks that you reckon or more 'metaphors!'

Goodnight/day!!

The ‘X’

I have been mentally completely bankrupt for quite a while now. This feeling is kinda taking over me. Sounds more like the mid life crisis, say, Quarter life crisis???

But that’s how its going, I have everything and everybody to keep me upbeat, friends, people around me, the 10pm Badminton friends, 24hrs laptop n Ipod, but something’s missing. Its something which comprises more of ‘me’.

The fun, the laughter, the mirth, the high spiritedness, everything that used to be very first in the attributes of who I am, is missing.

This is mainly because of the surreal, callous and malicious people I have encountered recently in my life. Not that it is bothering me so much but then I can’t stand it when one steps on my happiness. I cant. And in vengeance I end up in an argument which may not bother the person who I m talking about but makes me feel perturbed. This follows with a never ending feeling of guilt and culpability. I start questioning my blameworthiness.

Not that this person, say person ‘X’, I’m talking about is a friend of mine, or even remotely close to be called one. But then, this is the one whom I have to encounter everyday. If not part of my life, X happens to be a part of my everyday! and for reasons inarticulate to me, X seems to be very much at comfort to live in pretence even in smallest of things! Nobody would, would you?

One part of me hates X and the other part rather subtle, wants to forgive X. But both the parts the Anti and the Subtle are equally formidable and any try to strengthen either of them puts me into more frenzied turbulence. I cant do away with X but I cant even stand X.

Then wakes the more sensible and sane part of me, and thinks of this as just another unwanted-but-there part of life; Worrying so much about it, only makes it more significant. This side of mine makes my mind more strong to resist the turbulence created by the previous two; I can’t let myself ruin my days just for one person- X, who I don’t even care about or give a damn about!

Feeling much better after writing it down. : )

(X is purely an alphabet to denote here, any resemblance in name to any person living or dead is purely co-incidental)

Sometimes i feel, Blogger has become my best friend ! Anytime, Anything i feel, i can come up and expel here. Love you Blogger!

Goodnight/day

So Much to come up with....

I'm almost certain that I'm going to write them (not to ignore 'almost' here) but uncertain as to 'when'...
Here are some of my forthcoming topics (I hope i.e.) and what it includes.

1) PPt,P- Paratha Point, Parel.
2)A Changed Life!
3)Things that Mystify me.
4)Theoretical and Actual (not mass flow rate or Power or any sorta Output! :P ,as most of Mech enggs would prefer to think)
5)A 'B.E.S.T.' bus ticket.

Note: Author is Authorised to change the order or post a topic which comes to her mind at
that instant even if not revealed here.
However, Readers can express their choice of preference, if at all.